Thursday, February 26, 2009
im shock zul 2nd bro kol mie *
yeh..im shock he kol he actule talk to me wow but he onli ask me is his alder bro wif mie...zul 2nd bro was my close frewn until a hugE war wif his mum and hym abt getting home late.. we fought for abt 2 yrs..and NOW he kol my house phone??WOW hope he and mie lyk last tym i want to make peace wif him...tis fotoh was the last i took wif hym after the MCR concert ONLI GOD KNW HOWS OUR DAY TAT TYM..SO SWEET..NO BOY HAS SPENTED TYM WIF MIE LYK HOW HE DID I KNW I SHOULDEN BE BOSSY TO HYM AND TAKE HIS ALDER BRO AS MY BOIFREWN IM SOO COOLED HEARTED..HAIZZZ =(
8:53 AM
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
gettin over zul was easy tis song is forgeting a fuckin ex boi *
Uh! Yeah, you can do it Ha, heh heh
I couldn't give a damn what you say to me
I don't really care what you think of me
'Cause either way you're gonna think what you believe
There's nothing you could say that would hurt me or what you do.
I'm better off without you anyway
I thought it would be hard but I'm okay
I don't need you if youre gonna be that way 'Cause with me it's all or nothing I'm sick of this shit
Don't deny
You're a waste of time
I'm sick of this shit
Don't ask why
I hate you now
So go away from me
You're gone So long I can do better I can do better
Hey! Hey you!
I found myself again
That's why You're gone I can do better I can do better
You're so full of shit
I can't stand the way you act I just can't comprehend I don't think that you can handle it
I'm way over - over it
I will drink as much Limoncello as I can And I'll do it again and again
I don't really care what you have to say
'Cause you know - you know you're nothing
im so sick!
I'm sick of your shit
Don't deny You're a waste of time I'm sick of your shit
Don't ask why
I hate you now
So go away from me
You're gone So long
I can do better I can do better
Hey! Hey you! I found myself again
That's why
You're gone I can do better I can do better
Whad'ya say? I told you so You know that 'Cause I always know Get outta my face
Hey hey
You're not my taste
Hey hey I am so Sick of you
You're on my nerves
I want to puke Get outta my face
Hey hey You're not my taste hey!
I hate you now So go away from me
You're gone So long I can do better I can do better Hey! Hey you! I found myself again That's why You're gone
I can do better I can do better
I hate you now So go away from me You're gone So long
I can do better I can do better Hey!Hey you!
I found myself again That's why
You're gone
I can do better
I can do better
10:24 PM
atlast i got wan back *
2dey wan is cool wif me and settel down abt our relationship..and yeh still goin strong onli i need to do my part to be faithfull to hym And wan needs to trust me i have to gain tat trust back...his werking oh i miss wan alot i jus wanted to hold hym tight..is raining heavely at jurong west wear i lived he was werking as a cleaner at taman jurong...im worriedche get sick..and i dont want hym to meet asri i hate him..jus hoping he is doing find wif his job there=)
10:08 PM
cant stop thinking abt zul but i love wan *
i kept thinking Over and OVER AGAIN...hmmm its playing i my head over and over abt my swit tyms wif him arghhhh!!!!!!!!!! pls stop it!!but i almost lose wan...and i almost tell hym the true..well yesh i told hym he was cool at first then he burst to tears..and bagging pls dont ever let hym go..i did want to let go wan..i've make a stupid mistake by telling the true and if i nvr tell i felt gulti..yes the true can be hurtfull and reli shows me tat i've done a bad thing and admid my mistakes..wan acted all wired to me i msg hym lyk abt 20 words he always eply me a 30-40 wors and loving2 msg jus to tell me how much he miss and love me..but after i told hym he msg me lyk abt 2-3 words no loving2...i then relise i dont want tis to happen but every tym i go frewnster i will always wanted to go zul's and view hym jus to C how he has been doing i planed to delete him frm my frewn list but i dono how i tell fiqa to msg hym fiqa knw my secrets and i knw hers we ar close frewns..so i tell fiq to msg zul telling him im happie 4 u and ita abt the pt parttimer boifrewn gurl frewn let dun continew im goin to desipier and nvr want to see or been seen by hym..im goin to lost contact wif hym..but i jus check out wat has been doin wif ita and his shout out was get tis "Ku Skrng Ke SeOrng... Tampe DiriMu Di Sisi Ku... I Am Now Alone... WithOut You By My Side... Aku Cinta Kepada Mu... I Love You..."..and his layout frewnster lonely without you by my side..and jiwangs songs..(sad love song)i've been thiking till todey..hope he knw how to delete his frewnster at my frewn list asap.
11:07 AM
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
..i just cant lose both i love.. *
on the 13 feb jus 1 dey to go 4 vaientine dey and if i and my ex dzul ar still together we will be 1 yr...on the 13 i did sumting bad veri bad i and zul ar timer we played timer behind wan...i felt guilty after kissing hugging and had orel sex wif my ex zul...wan did not do anithing to hurt mie..im jus confuse?!? my love towards zul grow back i jus cant lose both of them i love both but i must let one of them go...zul and wan is close frewn i dun want to be a bitch and play wif thier fellings..jus befor i could deside on 23/02/09...i saw sumting tat reli hurts me lots..but i kept cool..he has A NEW GURLFREWN!!!! zul stead wif a grace orchid school gurl OMG..autistic gurl low IN IQ..sowie not to be rude but i was shock!!!..yeh she is pretty but>>low IQ WAT IS WIF HIM..but i think wat in the inside counts..hmm i knw tat gurl ita happend to be nana sis nana is asri gurl and asri was my bestie hanim ex guy i've meet ita befor on hari raya outing wif all of them..im dispointed wat i saw zul was hugging ita and nana such a bitch asri is alredy a jerk cant explain how they acted towards my actions lookin at zul and ita i look away cos i jus cant be bother but faiz gurlfrewn try hard to say "hey look a new coupple is form"WATEVER LIKE I DID NOTICE I'VE GOT EYES OK but kilah my frewn happend to be there and a (brouge) nana ex and hanim god sis told me ita got a guy but not zul soo..again im confuse it was ju an act?? i got home and chat wif fauzi..a hawt hunkie guy he is don and asri nephew..fauzi told me he was ita ex boi and he also hear tat zul and ita ar together..hahahahu knw a low iQ gurl CAN GET ALL THIS HMMM MY Jealousy IS BURNING HOT...but i jus kept cool infront of them and well im just happie 4 zul and ita"if they ar not acting infron of me 2gether"haiz..i jus want to tell tis out of my chest i jus dun want to be seen by zul,kilat and asri AS THE METTER A FACT ALL OF ZUL FREWNS..ONLI 4 WAN MY ONLI LOVE TAT DID NOT HURT MY FELLIN..i will want to break my friendship wif them!!and delete zul frm my acount frenster and msn..get away far far away as posible..tat all..but i still remember when he fuck my and gotten mie pregnant wif a adoreble twins and he ask me to go and abord it he a cool guy i tell u after 8 mth of toleriting wif him and goin throu the fuckin pain he then say>>i dont love u frm the start i knw u and u force me to be wif u OMG I BREAK DOWN AND I CANT SPEAK TILL TODEY I JUS CANT Accept tat i and zul NO MORE i reli miss my swit tym wif hym his my first love and the first to hurt me
cryin frm inside cool in the outside my heart ar poking wif a thousand knife and burning hawt but no want care im niev to belive zul my first love i've waited 4 hym since sec 1 rite now i knw he is jus not worth waiting i should love a guy hu reli love mie not a guy hu always hurt me tym to tym
oh Allah pls make me strong and move on...make me a better and a muture gurl and im bless to have ridhuan"wan" as my guy he has show me the gud path to go in my life he change my life and show me love ever since im wif zul ar together he waited 4 my love to hym im lyk his princesse he is swit compare to zul family they hate me lyk hell even thou zul is clam in this prob he nvr fight for our love when his mum disagree while..wan is sweet my family and his welcoming and sweet family aproved..im veri bless to have wan amin.
syasya xoxo
6:44 PM
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
my day out wif my luv ones~my family and iwan~ *
Todey is my dey out to MR TEH TARIK wif my family and my darling boyfriend iwan den we go out 2 gether......but there tiz prob iwan can't treat me lyk last tym..last mth he follow his dad and uncle..and they when kota tingi..johor baru..his uncle was a Muslim medium(BOMOH ISLAM)...i dun quit a belive in bomoh but iz true his uncle actualy pass down his"powers" to iwan...but to follow the rituals he must not do sins full things lyk kissing and hugging or "ahem ahem"..wif mie and do prayers (solat) or alse he will fell a painful at his chest..i feel it to if i try to kiss hym i even had the same dream over and over again i dream abt his father...iwan told mie he can't keep any of his secret his father knw tat i am his gurl but in the name of love i too need to sacrifce 4 his situation his dad allow him to see mie but dun do sinfull things...and i was ask in my own dream to change if i want to life wif him till death do as apart.. i' ve been tinking is tym 4 mie to change..and starting wif my mind concept and my clothing and learn solat and mengnaji...hopefuly it will be a sussesfull goal
Amin
7:03 AM
Wat has my gurls frewn become??? *
Every girls has their mistakes every one makes mistake but it will take a courage 4 A frewn to point to them wats wrong and wats is rite and im not tat courages to admit to them tat im veri disppointed very2 dispointed at wat has they HAVE become they use to be veri gud girls when i first knw them while im the wild one and im sick of tat.. sometimes i think iz it me??
did i let them to be lyk this am i their bad role model... i've change 4 the better even thou the idea of having the tattoo was jus an image in my head but i tell eu i will nvr want to do it but is my gurls is now starting but wat my girls friend did was over the limit i am their bestie and the alder amongs the three of us i've gone throu worse tym of my lifes i told them many2 tym so they will nvr ever follow my steps but even how disppoited i felt it..the more mistake they tell mie the more i wanted to cry infron of them and begging them to change..i knw they gone throu tough tym wif alots of family&money problem..but they ar young and look more beauty in wat ever they where not lyk my type of size"not saying im tat i enve of them" and even telented in wat ever work they do very clever gurls i tell eu wif bright future..and all ruin by their stupid idea of being a bad gurls..they ar my frewn i treat them lyk my sisters..but why..WHY..WHY!!!..DUN EVER FUCK WAT I SAY..I SAY IT COZ I CARE..DAME IT.. I SAY IT COZ IM YOUR FREWN TAT HAS DONE IT BEFOR AND SICK OF IT AND HAS TURN TO A NEW CHANGE..DRINKING,SMOKING,BEING A LESBIAN WHILE ATLEST SHE CHANGE BUT STILL HANGS AROUND WIF TAT GURL BUT I HOPING THEY WILL NVR BE 2GETHER AGAIN AND SELLING YOUR ONW PRECIOUS BODY 4 $$$ SLEEPING WIF OTHER MAN EVEN thou eu got a kindhearted boifrewn tat knw wat eu BEEN doin and tryin to make eu happy wif Money ..M-O-N-E-Y.. WAT IS WIF EU WIF DIRTY $$$ can big fat $$$ buy u love and happinest AND u thougt yeah of coz..howbout when au die can $$$ RIP 2GETHER wif u OMG...WAT HAS EU TWO BECOME...wat ar eu tryin to proof..I KNW it IF EU BOTH HAPPEN TO READ TIZ BLOG U both will be stuborn and dis agree Wif mie and be MAD at me 4 sure..have u ever thing OF ALLAH..AND WAT GREAT POWER ALLAH HAS INSTAL 4 AS ISLAM WAT COMES AROUND DID COMES AROUND U KNW WAT I MEAN BOTH OF U EVEN WATCH THE VIDIO 2gether wif mie ABT SEKSA KUBUR AND KEEP IN MIND ALLAH WILL DO SOMETHING WIF PPL LYK THIS..i wrote tiz to let out how i felt.
FROM A CONCERN HEARTbroken frewn
SASHA
4:19 AM
